Sustained Narrative Scroll

For my scroll I decided to express how I felt the first time I had a panic attack.

The beginning depicts a girl falling against a light background, this is supposed to be falling into the anxiety I felt. Gradually the color gets darker and there are tears in the paper to show the clear disconnect between myself before and after the panic attack.

Next I have drawn tunnel vision. In the dark black ink is a drawing of a desk, this is one of the few clear memories I had when the attack began as I was sitting on my friends dorm room bed.

To convey anxiety, fear and terror I drew my screaming face with wild hair going in all directions and holding a knife. This represents the feeling I had that I had no control over my own actions.

To to right of my head my hair comes out and flows down most of the rest of the drawing. Within the hair there are two deer. When I was brainstorming creepy imagery I decided I wanted to include a dead animal which for me choosing a deer is very symbolic. Where I'm from in Pennsylvania there are deer absolutely everywhere so the image of deer strongly connects me to home.

Next I included another face this one is a little distorted and strange looking to further illustrate the anxious feeling I had.

Lastly I included a train because its how I got to and from my friend I was visiting when I had the panic attack.

I considered including these lyrics from a song called Irvine on my scroll but decided against it however I still feel they give more insite to how I was feeling and the emotion I was trying to express with my scroll.

Are you there? Are you watching me?As I lie here on this floorThey say you feel what I doThey say you're here every moment
Will you stay? Stay 'till the darkness leavesStay here with meI know you're busy, I know I'm just oneBut you might be the only one who sees meThe only one to save me
Why is it so hard?And can't you just take me?I don't have much to goBefore I fade completely
Can you feel how cold I am?Do you cry as I do?Are you lonely up there all by yourself?Like I have felt all my lifeThe only one to save mine
How are you so strong?What's it like to feel so free?Your heart is really somethingYour love, a complete mystery to me
Are you there watching me?As I lie here on this floorDo you cry, do you cry with me?Cry with me tonightAre you there? Are you watching me?